Another lost day

So barely four days back to the blog, and already my second day in a row with no clear topic to write about… Makes me think that blogging just won’t be viable. As it stands this is all a loss anyway; I don’t even qualify for monetization through WordPress/”WordAds” so this just a way to pass the time.

Today was overcast and drizzly, and while it will seem random to most people, that made me think of Disneyland. When I was younger (17-23 or so) I had an annual pass to Disneyland (and eventually Disney California Adventure too.) I’ve never been able to totally pin down why I was so in love with Disneyland, but it was one of the only places I really felt OK; or looked forward to going to.

Part of that was likely that I had “friends” I used to spend time with there, though today I only really keep in touch with a single one.

Still today though there’s a deep sadness when I think about all of the experiences I’ve longed for that I’ve missed. There’s a constant “dream date” I envision, of simply cuddling/huddling together with a boyfriend/partner, sipping coffee or hot cocoa, while watching the nightly fireworks.

It’s hard to even think about that, knowing that it’s just pure fantasy at this point.